I guess I wouldn’t mind it, but I’m not completely sure about it.Īnd like I’d obviously be extremely happy if in some imaginary scenario, he said that he had a crush on me too. I’d be happy if I could maybe give him a peck on the cheek, but like I’m not sure how I’d feel about a proper kiss. And my answers weren’t really clear or definite. I tried imagining things - what would it be like if he kissed me, what would it be like if he was gay and stuff like that. Now, thing is, I’m not really sure if this is a squish (a platonic crush) or a proper romantic crush. I also find him incredibly funny, and have caught myself looking/gazing at him many times when he’s laughing, and kinda "admiring" it.
I also feel excited whenever he comes to meet me and I feel happy when I’m in his presence. I’ve come out to him and he knows that I’m gay and is alright with it (not homophobic or anything).įor about a few days now, I’ve come to realise that I seek a lot of validation from him. We’re not as close as before but we’re still pretty good friends, and talk at school and stuff. I used to be best friends with this guy about 3-4 years ago (also 17M, but straight), we’re still in the same school now, but in different classes. The "possibly" is important because I’ve never experienced romantic attraction before, but in my defence, I realised that I was gay only last year so I don’t really know any one that well enough yet to have a crush on. Okay so I’m 17M, and i identify as gay and possibly demiromantic.
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